I stood in the aisle in the back of the packed #28 bus.
He, an upperclassman, beckoned me but I was much too shy to move forward or respond to his flirtation.
He responded to my hesitation by shouting, “I didn’t want you any way! With that jheri curl!”
Suddenly I was surrounded by his crew of equally immature high school boys.
My nerves were at an all-time-high because I had no idea what was about to happen.
One by one they began to chant, “drip…drip…drip…” while their hands got very close to my freshly done jheri curl and began mimicking spray bottles.  My eyes moistened, as tears threatened to fall.
I said nothing and instead slowly made my way to an empty seat and silently prayed the bus ride would end soon.

Even today, that experience remains my most embarrassing moment. Thankfully, I can laugh at it now.
However, I shudder when I think back to who I was then…shy and so unsure of who I was. I wish I would have had the courage to stand up for myself.

I have come a long way from those days! Over time I learned to be vocal in public, a skill that has served me well both academically and professionally.  Although there have been times when I have thoroughly enjoyed using my voice to give a speech or do a closing argument, the sad reality is I have never felt truly passionate about either of those things. Although, trust me, today I would not tolerate the disrespect that I experienced that day on the bus!

I’ve always been envious of those who say they dream about their careers and wake up each day eager to immerse themselves in their work. My recent foray into sewing, has to a certain extent, done that for me. Seriously, I had zero desire to sew prior to May of this year! And now I dream about it…okay I’ll be honest not every night.  However, I truly enjoy reading articles about sewing, attending classes and soliciting advice from experienced seamstresses.

This week I attended a two hour class from 7:30 to 9:30pm on Tuesday and loved it…mind you my day started at 6:00am. In addition to attending the class, I found time to complete this skirt based on Mimi G’s maxi skirt tutorial! This skirt has an invisible zipper, pockets, belt loops and a belt.


I cannot say it enough…find your passion.  Perhaps it is speaking up on behalf of people, like me that day on the bus, who haven’t yet found their voice.  Or perhaps it is something more creative like sewing.  You never know…it might be in the most unlikely place…right beneath your nose. What’s your passion? If you haven’t found it, what steps are you taking to discover what it is?

46 thoughts on “TEARS

  1. I love it!! It’s so great to see you living out your passion. I’ve only known you as Rachel’s very serious sister, but I enjoy getting to read about this other side of you!


  2. I was once less vocal about speaking up for myself. Thank God I found my voice too. I enjoy reading your stories, your writing style is very descriptive where you draw a clear picture for the reader. Besides auditing my passion has always been writing, I love poetry, short stories, novels, spoken word, prose, etc., One day, I will find the time to get back to it but for now I read. Nice skirt too!
    P.S. I don’t recall your curl being juicy 😊


  3. That skirt is absolutely fantastic! I cannot believe you made that…I wish I had that kind of talent because that is beautiful. Looks like you found your passion.


  4. It really bothers me that you even have to say “I can laugh it off now,” because you shouldn’t have to. How they treated you was disrespectful and mean, not funny in any way. I am so happy that you have found your passion. I am so inspired by your maxi skirt; it is beautiful and so are you!


  5. It is pretty amazing the things that will stick with us from childhood…. I’ll never understand how kids can taunt others. Finding your passion and coming into your own is a journey, I love that you have found your voice!


  6. At least you know how to sew, I don’t! And the worst thing is I wanted to be passionate about something I can’t do. LOL! So you’re still blessed. Your outfit really looks great btw! 😉


  7. I loved this post. Everything unfolded so clearly. I dig your message: You never know where life takes you – just always be grateful.
    You are one of the bloggers that I nominated for the “Infinity Dreams” blogger award. Its a bit of a fun task to take on. A bit of social networking with bloggers as well as revealing yourself to your audience. http://mydesertlove.com/2015/10/how-to-make-a-blogger-blush-my-infinity-dreams-award/


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